never say forever

Should i write one theory about forever to make it valid?
Forever is too much, nothing lasts forever. Not even the feeling.

Sequel moments of bad experience i just had.
And again I need my time alone, need a space to move on.

It was a cheesy ride, a trigger to the fireworks.
I just lose my control and find my self in temper.

Now, I am thinking and it's not a justification.
When the last time I am thinking about my self?
Thinking what I really want in this life.

I guess lie is part of the adjustment.
I have a state of memories, remember.
Which is help to recognize whether the lying shows up or not.
That was a past of yours. I really hate it, the one I can't forget every inch of it.

It was a cheesy ride, I found my self in temper.
I will never get the recognition, how much I tried to prove my self.
You will never learn anything from me.
I get bored and take it casually.

Never say forever when you can't live with it.
It such a long time.
Do not ever waste your time.

space

It was a book about space.

A space i'm talking in here is about galaxies, stars, moon,planets, and else.

There was one time when someone gave me this book.

He was calling me only asked whether I want it or not.

Before it happened, he already gave me a bunch of astronaut toys.

He knew how I really wanted to be an astronaut, and also we both knew that it is impossible.

Anyways, he was a good friend of mine.

After he gave me that book, he told me that never stop believing. You will never know what the future brings. It sounds impossible but we still don't know, right? Even if it's not happening, the best and the biggest is never shows up, I gave you bunch of these to reminds you what is the best in your life, how life treated you, how you chase your dream, and how you should beat the impossible. The most important thing is how you believe in yourself when you pursue that dream.

So, astronaut things is never happening, my family against it. But, i still have this faith. 

That was kind a lesson for me, make a big change for my life, influential. 

And, i still have this dream to see earth from the moon. Of course, it's not easy. 

I have another dream to be chased, still everyone against.

It's so sudden, people said. But, it's not for me. I already had it from the beginning of my college time.

First, i know it seems so impossible but someone told me how to get there and it is possible. 

By doing it, i could be in the moon one day before i die. I need to get that job and I really want it.

When i see my self right now, typing this blog. 

I'm thinking about my self and how selfish my self to be. 

People who care about me against it but i am still stuck with my dream.

One thing for sure, the feeling I have about chasing dream is like I don't care how suffer I am losing those lovely people in my life as long as I am living in my dream.

I know, it's not gonna easy.

pagi menyambut

Is it normal that you want to unfriend everyone? not be someone's best friend or lover?

Shit, i miss my time without cellphone.
Damn! how i miss watch movie alone.
Or at least, do my old activities.
I really wish that i could meet new people.
I miss the award and punishment things.

I don't know maybe i just get bored. Fuuuuuccccckkkkk!!!!!