Spelling my mind

It's just my own incantations, mostly indecipherable.

In my own settlement for doing this, in my own sanctuary I put my indignant looks.
You may think I'm not under my consciousness or I'm in my own solitary but responsibility to you is my command. You may think I won't survive or I will get along with my utopia but you are my consideration.

Having You by Shift

I was sitting in a class by my self, I was looking for a clue to what I'm doing. It was just a random thought that came to me. Just one simple question, what is it all about?

I realize this is a responsibility that I've been signing for since I have this irrational feeling, I signed it up to your name only. There's no relationship but I can feel the commitment. But, for you, I'm not the only one you signed up for.

I know you love me but I'm not the only one you are in love with.
I know you want me but I'm not the only one you fight for.
I know you are happy to be with me but I'm not the only one who can make you feel that way.
I know for sure, I'm the only one you put no label on it.
For me, you are still the one who finished my exploration.

Am I gratified with that?  

I am complete and fulfilled. 

What they called it 'home'

Right now, I'm sitting in a place, what they called as a 'home'. It's kinda weird because I don't feel at home at all. I'm writing a phenomena about how ironic this place compare to myself.

At first, as you guys know, there are a lot of dramas. People talking behind everyone's back, you can't trust everybody, people mind about other's business, gossiping each other, the hardest part is they stuck with their asumption without asking the subject, yeah drama is in here. So many people in here, in different groups, different topics, different lifestyle and they unite in one place, what they called it 'home'.

In this crazy place, in this pathetic field, in this drama part, I really need to find a person who can talk about the news with me, talk about many world issues, talk about life, talk about plans, talk about ourselves, talk about how to provide ourselves with an intellectual things, talk about our opinions in many things, we both have the same thought about reducing drama and less attach with those drama king and queen, we read books and talk about it after we finish it. I need that kind of person in my life, in my own world. Well, I can't deny that I have found it, few people, maybe only 3 of them. They are my goodfriends but they have different part of it. Sometimes, I can't imagine what a cheesy thought my life had if they were not there who can provide my self with those things.

I have to disagree with what they called it as a 'home'. For me, it's just another judgmental world of pathetic generations. No offense, it's just a another judgmental statement from an outsider like me.

Well, we just different. I'm gladly accept our differences with my ignorance attitude. We are living in a different way of life. I don't care about your life. That's life, people's differences, the best way to handle the differences is do not disturb each other and that's fair enough. Adios!

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